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How did a nice, Jewish boy like
me end up doing what I do for a living? That's what I want to
tell you all about today, and I hope that as we talk about this,
that maybe some little piece of my life will connect with some
piece of your life, and that God will use what we're going to
talk about today to really make a difference in your life.
I was born and raised
in Portsmouth, Virginia, as was already said this morning. Both
my parents were Jewish. We were Conservative Jews. You know,
there are three major branches of Judaism: Orthodox, Conservative,
and Reformed. We were Conservative Jews. My mom lit Sabbath
candles every Sabbath. You know, if you saw the movie, Fiddler
on the Roof, you saw the mother in that movie do that;
my mom did that. We would go to synagogue on Sundays; I would
go to Sunday School at the synagogue. My father would usually
go to the Men's Breakfast and Men's Fellowship that they had
every Sunday at the synagogue. I went to Hebrew School twice
a week when I was in elementary school and junior high school,
two days a week, after school. We would all go to the synagogue
and go to Hebrew School. I was bar mitzvahed at age 13, the
way every good Jewish boy ought to be. But, you know, in terms
of the real presence of God in our home, it really wasn't there.
We didn't own a Bible, I never read a Bible. We didn't sit down
and pray before meals. We never prayed at all in my home. We
were just run of the mill, standard Jewish people who went through
the things that you're supposed to go through as Jewish people.
We went to High Holiday Services, we went to Yom Kippur, we
had a Passover Seder at our home, but really the presence of
God, Himself, was just simply not a reality in our life.
I can remember, as a little
boy, praying a few times. I can remember laying in bed as a
little boy, trying to talk to God. I can even remember a few
prayers, that I believe as a young child, God answered for me.
I kind of grew up believing that God probably existed, I mean
I had a sense that God was out there somewhere. But I didn't
know Him, I didn't know anything about Him; I had no connection
with Him at all. This is how I grew up.
Well, when I was 13, I was
bar mitzvahed, and then immediately after that I would help
reading the Torah in the synagogue. Sometimes I would go over
for daily services which happened, and I would read the Torah
a little bit, because I was pretty good at that. But when I
got to high school, my whole relationship with the synagogue
began to change. I got involved, I got interested in other things:
girls, and partying, and drinking, and let's face it, guys,
the synagogue just didn't hold much of a candle compared to
that stuff, you know! And so, I began to trail off in terms
of going to synagogue. But the real coup de grace came when
I was about 16, maybe just approaching 17.
I was involved in the acting
group at high school, in the Thespian troupe. When we would
practice plays, if you weren't particularly on stage and your
lines weren't up, we would just sit and talk. So I was just
sitting and talking one day with a girl that was also in the
play and she began asking me about whether or not I knew for
sure I was going to go to heaven. She began asking me about
my personal relationship with God. Well, I'd never even heard
of a personal relationship with God, never really talked or
thought much about heaven or hell because you just don't talk
about that in the synagogue. She kind of shook me up a little
bit.
So, the very next time I was
at the synagogue, I asked the rabbi if I could talk to him,
and I asked him a question. I said, "Rabbi, I need to know -
do Jews go to heaven, or hell?" And he went "Excuse me?" And
I went, "Well, no, do Jews go to heaven or hell? I need to know
this, because I've got a girl at my school who keeps telling
me that I'm going to hell." And he said, "No," he said, "Here's
what I need to tell you. All Jewish people go to heaven." And
I said, "Really?" He said, "Yes. Hell," he said, "is a gentile
problem." (Congregation laughs.) "That's wonderful!" I said,
"That's wonderful! But just so I can defend myself, explain
to me why this is, so I can tell this girl." He said, "Well,
we are all Abraham's descendants, and as Abraham's descendants,
we have a kind of a different arrangement with God than the
rest of the world does." And I said, "You mean to tell me that
I could do all kinds of stuff, you know, I could lie, I could
be nasty, and I'm still going to heaven because I'm Abraham's
descendent?" and he said, "Yeah." Now, actually, you know, there
is a passage - that I ran into many years later while I was
doing graduate work at Johns Hopkins University - from the Mishnah,
from the Jewish Rabbinic writings that actually says that very
same thing. It's in the Tractate San Hedron and it says that
very thing, that except for a couple of real bums, every Jewish
person's going to heaven. So, I was like, "Wow, this is fabulous!"
And I thought to myself, you mean, even if I never come to synagogue
again, I'm still going to heaven? And the answer is "Yes," and
so that was pretty much the end of my relationship with synagogue.
(Congregation laughs.) Well, I took him seriously, you know!
Anyway, I went off to the University
of North Carolina in Chapel Hill, as an 18-year-old young man,
confident that I was going to heaven, because I was Jewish,
and that that was pretty much the end of the story. But I went
off to the University of North Carolina excited about being
out from under my parents' roof, excited about having those
constraints removed, and excited now about being able to do
everything I'd always fantasized about doing, but you know,
when you're living at home, you can't pull it off, you know.
So, I joined a social fraternity when I got to Chapel Hill.
And if you saw the movie, Animal House, my fraternity
made Animal House look like, you know, a Christian
Day School. (Congregation laughs.) I mean, you just cannot imagine
what went on. I began getting deeply involved in drinking and
partying and women, and gambling. We would gamble all night.
We'd start playing cards around four or five o'clock in the
afternoon, we'd play all night long, then, about eight o'clock,
nine o'clock in the morning, go to bed. (We'd) wake up and you
know, eat some lunch, and about three, four o'clock, start again.
And this was life in the fraternity house. You say, "Well, what
about classes?" What classes? We weren't there for classes,
we were there for fun! And all you had to do was take enough
classes to stay out of the Vietnam war in those days and everything
was fine. Get a 2.0, and everything was copacetic.
Well, I did a couple of years
of that, but by the beginning of my junior year, all of that
was starting to get old. I don't know if any of you guys have
been down that road, but you know, a lot of things that start
off like that, being exciting and very titillating, they wear
out, and after awhile it's like, getting drunk one more time,
having one more woman ... I mean, it's just not all that exciting
any more. It's kind of "Been there, done that, got the T-shirt"
type of thing, you know what I'm saying? (Congregation laughs.)
Like, "No ..." So at the time I was beginning my junior year,
and all that started getting stale, I had begun to think a little
more seriously about the issues of life. You know, "Where was
I going? And what was my life all about? What am I doing here?"
and those questions were beginning to plague me, and I didn't
have any answers for them.
So I ended up that summer,
up in the Borsh Belt, up in the Catskills Mountains. A couple
friends of mine and I had hitchhiked up there and we were looking
for a job. We finally found a job, working in one of the restaurants,
one of the resort hotels up there, working in the restaurant,
and serving people. We made a lot of money that summer. This
was the summer of 1969. Although when I went up there, I'd never
heard the word, Woodstock, and had no idea what the word, Woodstock,
represented. The Woodstock Music Festival was happening not
too very far from where we were working. Some friends of mine
that I made up there who were from New York, said "Hey, we need
to go to Woodstock." And I'm like, "That's cool. What is it?"
They explained to me it's this big music festival and I was
like, "That's wonderful!" So we all bought tickets. I may be
one of the very few people in the world who actually bought
a ticket to Woodstock. (Congregation laughs.) They did sell
'em, honestly! They expected 50 thousand people, that was it.
They sold tickets. I wish I had kept it - I mean, it would be
worth a lot today - but I didn't. But I actually bought a ticket
and then 500,000 people showed up without tickets, and tickets,
you know, just didn't matter.
But I went to Woodstock, spent
the entire weekend there, and as a part of this whole New York
experience, I began to get very deeply involved in drugs. I
had dabbled with drugs in Chapel Hill before I'd gone up to
New York, but when I got up to New York it was the first time
I ever dropped LSD. I had some friends who said, "You know,
if you're looking for answers to questions about the universe,
you need to take this stuff." (Congregation laughs.) "This stuff
will enlighten you. This stuff will expand your mind. This stuff
will help put you in touch with real expanded consciousness."
And I was like, "That sounds cool, let's do it!" And so the
first time I ever took LSD was up in New York, that summer.
As I began taking LSD - we had done a lot of grass, and we had
smoked a lot of hash, but this was the first time I ever did
psychedelics.
I came back to North Carolina,
to Chapel Hill to start the next year of school convinced that
I had gotten onto the pathway to expand my mind, into the pathway
that would help me find answers to the universe. I came back
as a very strong advocate of drugs. As a matter of fact, about
50 or 60 percent of the people in my fraternity who have ended
up using drugs, I was the one who initially talked them into
it, encouraged them to do it, and the one who initially provided
the drugs for them to get involved. I was an advocate of this.
We began doing drugs all the
time. I mean we would smoke dope many times a day. I grew hair
out to my shoulders, a big old afro. See, my hair doesn't grow
down, it grows OUT. (Congregation laughs.) So I had this huge
afro, almost out to my shoulders, and I wore bell-bottoms and
tank tops, motorcycle boots, and love beads, and really looked
the part. The nice thing about hair like that is I could hide
joints behind my ears, and pull my hair over them (congregation
laughs) and the police would never think to look behind my ears
I figured. So a normal day in Chapel Hill would start off with
six or eight joints, four behind each ear, and as the day went
on, we would smoke 'em. That was a normal day in Chapel Hill.
We dropped LSD three, four, five times a week, sometimes more.
You say, "Well, Lon, if you're taking LSD three, four, five
times a week, and smoking dope every day, how in the world did
you ever maintain any presence in class?" The answer is, "We
didn't." It was much more fun to sit up in a tree and smoke
dope than it was to go to class. So we just didn't go. As a
matter of fact, I brought a copy of my year book, of the year
book from Chapel Hill that year, 1969-1970 because there's a
picture right in the front, a full page picture of me and several
fraternity brothers sitting up in a tree smoking dope. I'll
never forget the day it happened. I remember very well the day
it happened. We were sitting in this tree right in the middle
of campus, smoking dope, as I recall, my math class was happening
at that moment, or some class, anyway, and I remember hearing
down below us, about ten feet down, this "click, click, click,
click," and we looked down, and here's this guy, looking up
and snapping pictures of us! You say, "Well, didn't it worry
you, didn't it occur to you that it might be somebody with the
police?" Yeah, well, that occurred to us, but, frankly, it was
just too much trouble to get down. (Congregation laughs.) We
were just like, "Hey, what are you doing down there, man?" and
he said "Well, I 'm taking pictures for the year book." We were
like, "Oh, OK, that's cool. Go ahead." And then when the year
book came out, here we are in the front, right on the inside
front cover of the year book, this huge picture of us, sitting
up in this tree blowing dope. I brought
it for you to see. It's up here in the front, you can come up
afterwards and see it. But that was life in Chapel Hill.

We
were sitting in this tree right in the middle of campus, smoking
dope
I'm not telling you this because
I'm proud of those days, or I'm proud of my lifestyle. I'm telling
you this because I want you to get a sense of who I was at age
21 when Jesus Christ reached down and grabbed a hold of my life.
I was not some nice, run-of-the-mill everyday person who just
went about my business and suddenly I decided I wanted to get
religious. That's not what happened here. I was living a lifestyle
that was about as separated from Jesus Christ and Christianity
as you could possibly imagine.
I may be the only person in
the history of the University of North Carolina to have flunked
honors chemistry. I got into honors chemistry because my chemistry
grades the first two years weren't too bad, but then, I never
went to class. I took it my senior year, and never went to class,
never showed up in class, except for the first day. At the end
of the semester, the guy gave me an "F." I thought, "How dare
he give me an F?" So I went to see him and I pleaded for a "D."
He said, "Are you kidding? You were never here!" He flunked
me. I had to stay and go to summer school, because I flunked
honors chemistry. I doubt if there's another student in the
history of Chapel Hill that ever flunked honors chemistry. All
you do is show up, and you get an "A." I got an "F."
I also became well-known in
the city of Chapel Hill as a dope-pusher. We would get dope
from New York City; we would travel up there, buy large shipments
of dope, bring it back to Chapel Hill, cut it and sell it. We
had a friend who went to Amsterdam several times a year, and
would bring hash back sewn into the inside lining of his overcoat
- large amounts of it from Amsterdam. These were the days before
the dogs, and all of the modern equipment that they have now
to stop these folks. He generally had no problem whatsoever
getting huge amounts of dope in from Europe, then we would sell
it. I put myself through my last two years of school selling
dope; that's how I made my money. I wouldn't want to go out
and get a regular job. You could make a lot more money and it
was a whole lot easier work just selling dope to people, and
that's what we did. You say, "Well, how in the world did you
stay out of the grasp of the law? How is it that you didn't
get yourself arrested?" Well, the truth is, I almost did. In
the spring of 1971, just before I became a Christian, a matter
of a couple of weeks before I made a decision for Christ, there
was a knock one morning at the door of the house where I was
staying. It was the police. There was a guy sleeping out in
the living room, and the police said, "We have a warrant," (this
is a totally true story) "... for the arrest of Lon Solomon
on dope charges. Is he here?" Well, I was there, I was back
in my bedroom. My friend at the front door had enough presence
of mind to say, "Could I please see the search warrant?" They
had a search warrant for the house. The search warrant had the
wrong address - it had the address of the house next door on
it. He picked this up and he said, "You can't come in here.
This search warrant is not for this house, it's for the house
next door, you've got the wrong address on here." He wouldn't
let them in. If they'd have come in ... there was dope all over
the house. I'd have been in jail! They actually went next door,
went into that house. The people living next door were friends
of ours, fraternity brothers of ours, we had sold them the dope
that was in their house. They found the dope, went to class,
arrested my fraternity brother right out of his class, put handcuffs
on him and took him to jail. He got arrested, but it wasn't
him they were looking for! It was me. So, that's how close it
was. I liked to (back in those days) I liked to say to my friends,
"I'm so hot that the air crinkles when I walk around." Because
we were well-known. I mean, the police knew who we were. But
I'm getting a little ahead of myself here.
All the time I was doing dope
like this, I want to tell you, I actually thought that I was
making spiritual progress. I actually thought that spiritually,
I was moving towards a place where I was going to get all these
answers to the universe, that I cared about. And again, I'm
telling you all that because I want you to understand where
I was in 1970 when Jesus Christ began to make an impact on my
life.
Now the real turning point
in my life, as I look back, came in the very early spring of
1971. I was sitting on a wall in downtown Chapel Hill, there's
a little wall right there, if you've ever been there, right
on the edge of campus. It was about two o'clock in the morning.
My friend and I (my good friend and fraternity brother that
I did a lot of dope with), he and I were sitting there, tripped
out on LSD, and we were talking. I said to him, as part of this
conversation, I said, "You know, David, something is really
bothering me. You know, here we are, we're doing all these drugs
and we're the flower people, you know, we're the love children.
But instead of getting better, instead of getting more loving,
and more caring, and more kind, you know, I really feel like
I'm getting worse. I feel like I'm getting, not better,
but I'm going in the other direction. He turned to me and he
said, and I don't know - he wasn't a Christian, and I don't
know that he had any sense of the impact he was about to make
on my life, but he turned to me and he said, "Lon," he said,
"Maybe you're not getting worse." He said, "Maybe you're just
getting more honest about what you've really been all the time."
I was like "Whoa, dude, that's heavy, man!" (Congregation laughs.)
To him, it was a passing comment. To me, it was like a sledgehammer
had hit my life. Because, you know, I had grown up believing
my own PR. I had grown up believing I was a good person, a nice
person, a kind person, a giving person, an unselfish person,
and a person that was going to heaven. That's what my rabbi
told me. All of a sudden, I was faced with the fact that maybe
I wasn't all of that. All of a sudden I was confronted with
the fact that maybe the truth is that that was all a bunch of
PR that I had blown out, that the real me was a very different
person. The more I thought about what he said to me, the more
I began to realize that he was right. As I began coming to grips
with this, really taking a hard, honest look at myself, I want
to tell you - what I saw, I didn't like. I didn't like what
I saw. All of a sudden, my perspective on myself totally began
to change. Suddenly, I began to see myself as a person in need.
Not a person that was fine, and doing all right, but a person
in deep and desperate need. Suddenly, I began to see myself
as being selfish, and self-centered, and self-ingratiating,
a person who was immoral, a person who was unethical, a person
who was profane, and I had to finally admit to myself, "You
know, Lon, to see yourself any other way, you are kidding yourself,
friend, you are deceiving yourself, and it's a big game. You
are not the person you always projected that you were, this
is what you really were, and it was not, not a pretty picture."
Well, I began to realize, as
a result of this, that I needed help. I needed some change!
I needed someone, or something that could change me from the
inside out. That was a major turning point in my life, because
up to that point, I didn't really feel that I needed any outside
help. But now I did. It began to grip me. Drugs began to become
passe' at that point in my life, because I realized, I'd been
doing them for years now, and I realized that they could not
change me from the inside out. I decided I needed religion.
I needed God, in some form or another.
So the first form I got into
was Eastern religions. I went down and bought all these books
on Eastern religions, Taoism, I read a lot of that; Confucianism,
read a lot of that; got a lot of books on Zen Buddhism, got
a lot of books by Alan Watts and other writers and read a lot
of those books. You know what was interesting about these Eastern
religions? They sounded wonderful on paper. But I just couldn't
make them work in real life! I mean, I would go out and read
Zen Buddhism for the first three hours of the morning, sitting
in the woods with my legs crossed, under a tree, and then I
would get up and say to my friend, "Hey, what's for lunch?"
and blow my whole Zen for the day. You understand what I'm saying?
Zen's gone. I couldn't make this work. I really tried. I wanted
to cut my hair in a pony-tail and go dance around on the street
with the Hare Krishnas and do all this stuff, except I hated
their food. Have you ever eaten that food? (Congregation laughs.)
It's awful! So I couldn't be a Hare Krishna, because I knew
I'd starve to death, I couldn't eat the food! (Congregation
laughs.) So I gave up on being a Hare Krishna, because of that.
But I was trying to make the rest of this work, and I couldn't.
So I decided, all right, I'm
not going to be an Eastern religion person, so I decided, maybe
what I need to do, is I need to go back to Judaism. That's kind
of my ace-in-the-hole. Maybe I need to go get deeply involved
in Judaism, and maybe I can find in Orthodox Judaism the Answers
that I need for life.
So there was a campus rabbi,
and I went to visit the campus rabbi. I walked into his office
with my hair and my bell-bottoms and everything, and I plopped
down in his chair, and I said to him, I said, "Rabbi!" "Yeah?"
I said, "I think God wants me to be a rabbi." He looked at me
and he said, "No, I don't think so." (Congregation laughs.)
I said, "But Rabbi, listen, I have some deep-seated needs in
my life; I've got some questions I really need answers for ..."
I began sharing with him about the hunger in my heart, sharing
about the needs that I had, and he - I don't even think he had
a clue what I was talking about. He gave me a couple of books
to read. I didn't want books! I wanted somebody to come up and
sit down next to me and look me in the eyes and say, "I know
the answers to the questions you're asking. I know how you can
get changed on the inside, and not be the ugly person that you've
realized you are. I can help you." He didn't do that for me.
I don't think he even had a clue how to do that. I walked out
of his office and said "Ppbbb!, man, there's nothing there for
me."
Now that was pretty depressing,
because Judaism, going back to Judaism had kind of always been
my one ace-in-the-hole. You know, I figured if everything else
fails, I'll go back to Judaism. Now, I had gone back, having
tried everything else I could think of: women, drinking, partying,
drugs, Eastern religions, now Judaism, and I still had no answers
as to how to change myself. Remember, guys, the issue for me
at this point was not so much that I was concerned about going
to hell. I still believed what the rabbi told me at that point,
that I was going to heaven. That wasn't my issue. My issue was,
I couldn't find the resources I needed to live life. I couldn't
find the answers I needed to make life make sense and make me
into the kind of person I was proud to be. I couldn't find that.
Those were my issues.
Well, I would sit and talk
to my fraternity brothers about these things. They thought I
completely lost my mind. We would sit around and smoke dope
and I would say to them, "You know, guys, why are we here? And
why are we on the earth? And what's our purpose in life? And
where are we going? And what's the meaning of life?" They would
all go to me, "Ahh, man, you are bumming us out! Man, what is
wrong with you, man? Why you gotta ask questions like
this? Why don't you just be like a normal person, you know?
Why don't you just graduate from college, and get a job, and
get married, and have kids and raise 'em up and be a grandfather,
and die, like normal people?" (Congregation laughs.)
"Why have you got to have answers to all these stupid questions?"
My friends began to think I'd flipped out. They began to wonder
whether I'd lost my mind.
And you know what? I began
to wonder, whether maybe I'd lost my mind. I mean, you read
about all these guys who go trip out on LSD and then they never
come back. I thought, "Well, maybe I'm on one of these trips
and I never came back! (Laughter.) I mean, I didn't think that
I'd never come back, but who that never comes back THINKS that
they never came back? You know? (Laughter) Did that make any
sense? So I'm like, well, maybe I've never come back, and maybe
I just don't know it, and I'm really in some psychiatric hospital,
and I'm going under shock therapy and I'm thinking I'm an orange
and hiding under the bed or something."You know? Reality was
really messed up for me in those days. I mean, that's where
I really was. Now, I was so confused, I didn't know what reality
really was anymore.
I began to plan suicide. I
said, now this is stupid. It's absolutely stupid for me to grow
up and live that kind of life, and go through all the heartache
and the pain of living life, if I don't even know what I'm doing
here. I don't even know what my purpose in life is, and I hate
the person I am on the inside. This is stupid! Why don't I just
go ahead and take my life? And I was really planning on it.
But I procrastinated in so many things, that I was going to,
I just hadn't gotten around to it. (Laughter.) But I had every
intent of doing this.
In the spring of 1971, all
of that changed. One spring day, I was walking on the streets
of Chapel Hill. Chapel Hill is only about two blocks. I was
walking down Chapel Hill, on this nice, warm spring day, very
crowded day, with my dog. I had a German Shepherd, about 80-85
pound German Shepherd named Noah. I don't know why I named him
Noah, but I'd had him since he was a pup. He got into a fight,
a little dog fight, right in front of the weirdest man in the
universe.
Let me tell you about the weirdest
man in the universe. The weirdest man in the universe was a
man named Bob Ekhart. Bob Ekhart was a man in his forties at
the time, who worked in Durham, about eight miles away from
Chapel Hill. But he would come to Chapel Hill every Saturday
with his Econoline van, his white Econoline van. He had scripture
verses written all over the side of his white Econoline van.
He had two big megaphone speakers mounted on the roof of his
van, connected up to a record player where he would play scratchy
old seventy-eight hymns, and blast them down the street out
of these two megaphones. He would stand out on the street corner
of Chapel Hill handing out pamphlets about Jesus Christ. And
he would do that along with his wife, all day, every Saturday.
Now, he was not well-received
in Chapel Hill. People spit on him, people threw the tracts
back at him, people cursed him out. People were incredibly nasty
to this guy, but week after week after week, that Spring, I
saw him down there. I avoided him. I didn't want to get near
the man, you know, this was like out of a circus or something!
But anyway, that day, my dog got into a fight right in front
of where he was standing. I pulled my dog apart from the dog
that he was mangling at the time, (laughter) and this other
guy, Bob Ekhart helped me a little bit. So here I am now, eyeball
to eyeball with the weirdest man in the world.
What do you say to the weirdest
man in the world? I mean, I didn't want to say something wrong.
So, I looked at him, and I said, "Hi!" and he went "Hello!"
Well, now what do you say? So I said, "Gotta go!" And he said,
"OK, see you!" And I went, "OK ..." and off I went. The whole
encounter could not have lasted thirty seconds. But I have to
tell you, in those thirty seconds of being eyeball to eyeball,
about two feet away from this man, and looking in his eyes,
I walked away and something inside of me said to me, "Lon, this
guy has what you're looking for." You say, "How do you know
that?" Friends, I can't tell you how I knew it. I don't have
any empirical evidence. I can't put into a test tube what I
was feeling, but I'm telling you, I walked away and something
inside of me said, "Lon, this guy's got what you're looking
for.The peace, the contentment, the wholeness, the healthiness,
that you're looking for - he's got it."
Man, that plagued me. I mean,
that plagued me. But it also gave me some hope. Because I have
to tell you, folks, I had begun to wonder if anybody in the
whole world had what I was looking for. I'd never met anybody
who had answers to the questions I was asking. My fraternity
brothers didn't. My drug buddies didn't. I didn't know anybody
who had answers. I'd begun to think, "There are no answers to
these questions." Then, suddenly, I met a man, who gave me some
hope, maybe there really were some answers to these things.
In a few weeks, I would wander
by him and take his tracts. I wouldn't talk to him, I was too
scared to talk to him, but I would take his little pamphlets
that he was handing out. In fact, I developed a nice little
stack of pamphlets at home on my dresser. I didn't read 'em.
But I took 'em, because I felt bad for the guy. I mean, I felt
like - he's a sincere guy, and people are treating him nasty,
and sincerity is at a premium, and somebody ought to at least
be nice to him and take what he's giving out. So I would take
'em and go home and stack 'em up. I really wanted to talk to
him, I just couldn't get up enough guts to do it.
Finally, "This is stupid! You
just need to go talk to this guy." So I walked up to him one
Saturday morning, Spring of 1971, and I said, "Hey," I said,
"Um, I'd like to come talk to you sometime." And he said, "Well,
that would be wonderful. How about three o'clock this afternoon?"
Now, I wasn't ready for that.
(Laughter.) You know, it's kind of like when you see somebody
at church, and you say, "Why don't you come over for lunch sometime?"
and they go, "Fine, how about today?" (Laughter) That's not
what you meant! I didn't expect him to say, "Today!" I expected
him to go, "OK, in a month or so ..." and it would give me enough
time to work up some courage. But he said, "How about three
o'clock this afternoon?" and I'm like, "Um, well, no ... I can't
do it this afternoon, I got something else to do, I got another
appointment." Now, what kind of an appointment does a hippie
have at three o'clock on a Saturday afternoon, in Chapel Hill,
North Carolina? (Laughter.) I was lying through my teeth, friends.
But I was scared! By now, I was totally freaked out, and I said
to him, "I gotta go. I gotta go. Maybe some other time, we'll
talk another time." I started walking down the street, and I
got maybe ten, twelve yards down the street, with my dog. A
crowded day, streets packed, in this warm Spring day in Chapel
Hill, and this guy cups his hands around his mouth, and he screams
at me. I had said to him, "Well, maybe I'll see you next week."
And he screams at me, "YOU MAY NOT BE HERE NEXT WEEK!" (Laughter.)
And I'm like, "Oh, my goodness ..." I'm looking around trying
to pretend like I don't know who he's talking to, either. (Laughter.)
I don't want all these people knowing that the weirdest man
in the world is yelling at me! I don't even want them to know
I've talked to him.
So, I hurried down the street,
I ducked around the corner, and leaned up against the brick
wall, and I went, "Arggh! That was the worst experience of my
whole life. I can't believe I did that." But as I began walking
around that day, I began thinking, "Well, that guy's right.
I've got no guarantee I'll be here next week." I'd already lost
several high school friends. One had died in a motorcycle accident,
one had died of a kidney infection. And I thought, well, you
know, he's right, I might not be here next week, I should go
talk to him. So three o'clock, I showed up.
He was gone! I mean, he didn't
know I was coming. So he finished up, and he'd left. This was
awful! Because I felt like this guy had laid a prophecy on me
that I wasn't going to live for another week! (Laughter.) Now,
I know that sounds silly, but it's not silly. I mean, I was
terrified that this guy had predicted my death!
The next week was the most
horrible week of my entire life up to that point. You know,
a good friend of mine owned a motorcycle, let me ride it all
the time. Didn't ride it that week! I didn't walk under ladders
that week. You know, God help me if a black cat walked in front
of me. I looked both ways before I crossed the street, deliberately,
I climbed steps one at a time, holding onto the handrail. I
was terrified!
The week finally went by, and
next Saturday came, and I got up at the crack of dawn, which
in those days was about ten o'clock in the morning. (Laughter.)
And I went downtown to see this guy! I don't know what would
have happened if he hadn't come to town that day, but sure enough,
faithful as ever, about ten-thirty, he came punting into town
in this white Econoline circus van. He got out of the van, and
I walked over to him, I had been sitting there waiting for him.
I walked over to him and I said, "Look. Because of you, I have
just lived the worst week of my entire life. Now, we need to
talk." I said, "There's got to be a sales pitch that goes with
this thing you do here. I didn't know what to call it. I said,
"So, give me the sales pitch! I'm willing to listen."
Now, I should drop back and
tell you one quick thing. During the middle of the week I was
so scared that I thought, "I'm going to go buy a Bible." You
gotta understand, friends, dope pushers don't own Bibles. You
understand? None of my dope-pushing buddies owned Bibles. None
of my fraternity brothers owned Bibles. You know, the lifestyle
we lived did not fit with owning a Bible. And so, I thought,
well, if I have a Bible, maybe I'll make it through the week,
kind of like a Talisman or something. So I went down to the
bookstore in town to buy a Bible.
I did not know how expensive
Bibles were! I couldn't believe it! I was like, "Wow, that's
an awful lot of money for a Bible." I only had about five dollars
to my name then. We were between dope shipments and five dollars
was about all I had. I was eating scraps out of my fraternity
house kitchen. I would serve the dinner, and then, as my payment,
they would let me eat the leftovers. I ate a lot of broccoli,
a lot of cauliflower, not much steak. You understand what I'm
saying? And so that's how I was surviving. Well, the cheapest
Bible I could find was three dollars! A little, tiny paperback.
I was standing in line to pay
for it, and my friend, the one who had said to me, "Well, maybe
you're just getting more honest about what you were all the
time," came by, saw me in line, and came into the bookstore
there, the university bookstore. He said, "What are you doing?"
I said, "I'm buying a Bible." He said, "You what?!?" I said,
"I'm buying a Bible." He said, "What in the world would you
do something like that for?" And I told him a little bit about
the kind of week I was having. So as we are standing in line,
he says to me, "Lon." He says, "Now stop for a second, think."
He said, "If this God that you're worried about is so real,"
he said, "Don't you think He could give you a Bible without
you having to spend fifty percent of your life savings on it?"
(Laughter.) And I was standing there and I went, "Yeah, that
sounds spiritual. That sounds real spiritual." I went, "Alright,
that sounds good." I went and put the Bible back. Now you need
to know that because of what's going to happen now.
So, next Saturday, I'm talking
to this man, and so he takes out a Bible and starts reading
from it. He reads from the Old Testament, he reads from the
New Testament. He began telling me Bible stories that most of
you probably know, but I didn't know them. He read to me about
Elijah and the prophets of Baal up on Mt. Carmel. I thought
that was the greatest story I'd ever heard in my whole life!
I was like, "This is a great story!" He read me other things.
We talked for about two hours. It was like water on a dry sponge.
And at the end of two hours, he said to me, "OK, now, are you
ready to receive Jesus?" I'm like, "Huh? Excuse me!" "Are you
ready to receive Jesus?" he said. Well, I didn't even have a
clue what that meant, but even the little bit I could kind of
figure out about what I thought it meant, I said to him, "No.
No, no, no. Hey, it's been fun talking to you, man, and this
has been wonderful, but I'm Jewish! Jewish people don't do this.
Jewish people, we just don't do this." He said, "Well, sure,
Jesus was Jewish." He said, "Do you realize that all the early
followers of Jesus were Jewish? The whole early church was Jewish.
Everybody who wrote the Bible with the exception of Luke was
Jewish!" I said, "Nahhh, come on!" He went, "Yeah," he said,
"Did you know Peter was Jewish?" I was like, "You've got to
be kidding!" He's like, "No." I was like, "Really?" "Yeah!"
Well, I never knew this, nobody ever told me Peter was Jewish,
I figured he was, you know, white, Aryan, WASP gentile. (Laughter.)
Who knows? I didn't know what he was. We don't study Peter in
the synagogue, you understand. So I was like, "Really?" He's
like, "Yeah." I said, "Now look, Peter, yeah, but Peter doesn't
have to go face my parents. You know? You understand what I'm
saying? No, I'm not ... I don't really think so." He said, "Well,
look, would you do me one favor?" I said, "Maybe." He said,
"Would you, would you be willing to promise me that at least
you'll read the Bible and let God speak to you from the Bible?"
I said, "Well, yeah, I don't think it would do any harm to read
from the Bible." He said, "Do you have a Bible?" I said, "Uh,
no." He said, "Come here a second." And he opens up the back
of this van, and here is this huge box of brand new Bibles.
I mean, cellophane wrapping and all! And he takes one of these
Bibles and he says to me, "Here." And I said, "Well, I don't
have any money. I can't pay for this." He said, "Well, I don't
want you to pay me anything for this. If you promise me you'll
read it, I'll give it to you." Whoa! I mean this was getting
too close to home, now! (Laughter.) Because, on Wednesday, I
had said to God, "If you're really real, God, you prove to me
you're real by giving me a Bible." But folks, where was I going
to get a Bible from? The people I hung out with did not walk
around handing out Bibles. The odds of somebody giving me a
Bible were less than zero. Four days later, this guy opens his
trunk and hands me this brand new Bible! And I mean, it was
like, Oh, man! This is, this is getting too scary here. So I
took the Bible and I said, "I gotta go." And I left.
And as I walked away, I remember
saying to myself ... Now, this is freaky! This is really freaky!
Do you really think this could be right? I mean, could this
really be what he said it is? Could Jesus Christ really be the
Messiah of Israel? I mean, could you have backed into the God
of the universe here? That's what I walked away thinking. Well,
I was pretty skeptical, but I kept my promise. I took the Bible
home, put it on my nightstand, and I began reading it a little
bit every night before I went to bed, because I love to read
before I go to bed. I started reading in the Old Testament.
I didn't know where to start. I mean, who knows what the Bible's
like? So I started in the Old Testament. I read about Adam and
Eve and all this good stuff. I mean, I'd heard their names,
but I never knew what the Bible said about them. And I thought,
well, that's a pretty interesting story there. But then I got
to that section where so-and-so begat so-and-so, begat so-and-so
... I didn't know how long that went on. And I thought, well,
man, this ain't getting me nowhere. Maybe I should switch to
the New Testament, 'cuz that's what talks about Jesus.
I didn't know whether the New
Testament went: Introduction, Main Body, Conclusion, Anti-climax
... I didn't know whether it was a collection of short stories,
whether it was an anthology of poetry? I didn't know what the
thing was! So, you figure, if you don't know, you start at the
beginning, right? So I turned to the gospel of Matthew, and
I started reading. Man! I couldn't believe some of the stuff
that was in there! I must have read the Sermon on the Mount
seven or eight times in a row before I could go on. What I could
not get over, the thing that impressed me the most, was how
Jesus used words to cut right to the heart of things. I mean,
he could say more in one sentence than professors I had had
could say in the whole semester, it seemed! He cut right to
the core with one sentence! I couldn't get over it! I kept on
reading and I finally got to Matthew, Chapter 11, where Jesus
said, "Come to me, all you who are heavy laden, and who are
burdened down, who are overwhelmed, and I will give you rest.
You will find peace for your soul." And when I read that, I'll
never forget, I'll never forget looking up and saying, "Bingo!
Bingo! This is exactly what I'm looking for! I couldn't have
even put it in words that good myself!" I remember thinking.
"Heavy laden ... burdened down." That's exactly how I feel.
And what I'm looking for is peace, and rest for my soul. This
is it! This is exactly what I'm looking for! And here Jesus
is, promising that if I'll come to him, he'll give it to me!
Well, I thought, you know what?
I gave drugs a fair shot in my life. I gave Zen Buddhism a fair
shot in my life. I gave Judaism a fair shot in my life. I gave
women, and partying, and drinking a fair shot in my life. It's
only fair I give Jesus Christ a fair shot in my life. So, I
decided I was going to do that. But I didn't know HOW? I mean,
this guy had said to me, "Receive Jesus." I do not have one
clue what that means. Not one! I mean, if the guy had said to
me, "Stand on your head and spit nickels," I would have at least
known what position to get in. (Laughter.) Do you follow what
I'm saying? "Receive Jesus" means absolutely nothing to me.
So I figure, OK, I'm on my own. You say, why didn't you call
him? I didn't have his phone number! I had no way to get in
touch with this man. So I'm on my own.
So I got down on my knees,
'cuz, I don't know, it just seemed appropriate. And here's what
I prayed. I prayed, "OK, God." I said, "I don't even know if
you're real. And this Jesus character, I am really confused
about. But, God, I'm empty on the inside. And I'm hurting on
the inside. And I'm lonely on the inside. And I'm scared on
the inside. And I need some help. And here's Jesus promising
me that he can give me rest, and that he can give me joy. So
God, here's what I want to do. I want to give you my life for
one month. One month. And I'll do anything you ask me to do.
I'll go anywhere you ask me to go." (I didn't know how he was
going to ask me or tell me, but I mean, I was sincere about
it!) And I said," Look, at the end of that one month, God, you
haven't given me this joy, and this rest, that you're talking
about, I reserve the right to take my life back and cancel the
deal. How about that? But, if you really give it to me, this
rest and this joy, then you can have my life for good. A deal's
a deal. Amen!"
You say, Lon, that is the worst
salvation prayer (laughter) I have ever heard in my entire life.
Well, but I'm flying on my own here, guys! I'm going by the
seat of my pants. YOU weren't there to tell me how to pray a
salvation prayer. I didn't know how to pray to God! I just got
a sincere heart, and I just want to do business with God! And
I figured, a month ought to be long enough, if you're God, you
know. I'm so glad for a verse of scripture in the Bible that
says this: (1st Samuel 16:7) Man looks on the
outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart. I'm
so glad that God, up in heaven, said, "Solomon, that is the
most awful prayer for salvation I ever heard, but you know what?
I'm going to look past that prayer, son, and I'm going to look
at your heart and I see in your heart, you mean business. So,
I'm going to forget about the prayer, and I'm going to deal
with your heart." I'm so glad God sees the heart!
And I got up off my knees,
and I said, OK, well, now we'll see what happens. I was very
skeptical. I got to tell you, I was very skeptical. I really
didn't think this was going to work, but I thought, "Well? Who
knows?"
But then I thought, "Well,
I need more than this. I mean, this, some kind of ethereal feeling
that God's going to give you. That's not enough." So I got back
down on my knees and I said, "God, one more thing. My dog has
the mange." (Laughter.) Now, you know what the mange is. The
mange is when the hair, your hair, the hair starts falling off
the dog. I had been putting this salve on it, that the vet gave
me, and it wasn't helping, it was getting worse. So I said,
"God, one more thing, here. My dog has the mange." And I said,
"I need more than just some feeling you're going to give me.
I need to know you're real. So here's what I want you to do."
I said, "God, I'm going to stop using the medicine on my dog.
I want you to heal my dog." And then, I got up and I thought,
"Well, maybe that's not fair to the dog. You know. Because maybe
you should ask God to levitate the bed or something else, you
know." (Laughter.) But I said, "No, no, no, a prayer's a prayer.
We'll see what happens." Because, I figured I wanted a God who
was at least powerful enough that he could handle a case of
mange! You understand what I'm saying. (Laughter.)
Well, all I can tell you, folks,
is within three or four days, the mange had completely cleared
up on my dog. You can explain it any way you want to explain
it, but I'm telling you, I knew it wasn't that medicine, because
I'd been using the medicine on the dog and the dog had been
getting worse! I stopped using the medicine, and the dog got
better, and the mange went away. And, I knew. You can
attribute it to anything you want, but I knew what
I'd prayed, and I knew God had done something for me.
And God began doing some other
things for me on the inside, that I couldn't outwardly prove
to anybody, but I knew things were beginning to happen on the
inside of me, that had never happened before. And about a week
later, I got back down on my knees and said, "God, I'm convinced!
I mean, you have changed, not only did you do that thing for
my dog, but on the inside, man, there are things happening inside
of me! There's a joy, and a peace, and a contentment I have
never felt (before). And frankly, there's also a sensitivity
to sin that I've never experienced before in my life." The things
I used to be able to do without the slightest pang of conscience
suddenly, they were bothering me. And suddenly, the only way
I could deal with them was when I asked God to forgive me, I
would feel fine. But I'd never been through that before. It
never bothered me before. So, all of this was happening on the
inside of me, and I knew I didn't create it, and I knew I didn't
generate it. And I had no explanation for all of this, except
that something supernatural was going on.
And I got back down on my knees
a week later, and I said, "God, I'm convinced! I made a deal
with you, and a deal's a deal. I told you that I would give
you my life for good, and I don't know what you can do with
a hippie with hair out to his shoulders, and love beads, and
bell-bottoms on, who blows dope, but whatever you can do with
me, a deal's a deal, God. I give you my life, for sure." And
that was in the spring of 1971.
Well, the next time this man
came to town, I went up to him and told him this whole story.
Just laid this whole story on Bob Ekhart. Bob Ekhart grabbed
me, he hugged me, he called his wife out of the back of the
van. He said, "Amy, Amy, come here, quick, you gotta hear this!"
And he said, "Tell her, tell her!" So I told her the whole story.
She said, "Praise the Lord!" She was dancing around, and I'm
looking at these people and they're hugging each other, and
I'm like, what in the world have I got myself into? (Laughter.)
I hope I'm not going to act like this, well, you know, when
I'm a Christian for awhile. They were so excited!
You know what? Bob Ekhart's
still living, today, as I record this, and, uh, we talk on the
phone every once in awhile. And he has said to me that in all
the time he came to Chapel Hill, all that Spring and Summer
of 1971, every single Saturday, and as far as we know, I'm the
only person that came to Jesus Christ as a direct result of
him being here. Now, there may have been others that we don't
know about. But you know, I like to think that God sent Bob
Ekhart to Chapel Hill just for me. Just for me!
Well, a couple other things,
and then, we're done. The next thing he said to me is, he said,
"You need, Lon, you need to go get baptized." I said, "Huh?
What?! Baptized? I'm Jewish, man! Jewish people don't get baptized."
(Laughter.) He said, "Well, Jewish people don't believe in Jesus,
either, and you said you do that!" I'm like, "Good point. OK."
(Laughter.) So I went home and I began thinking about it, and
I thought, "Well, you know, if I mean business here, then I
need to mean business here. I mean, you don't get half pregnant.
And you don't become half a Christian. So, if I'm serious about
my relationship with Jesus Christ and I read in the Bible where
Jesus said, 'You need to be baptised,' and I said, 'OK, let's
do it!'" So he baptized me in a pond, down in Chapel Hill, North
Carolina.
And then I decided it was time
to go tell my relatives. (Laughter.) Well. Um. That was a very
interesting experience. I don't have the time to go deeply into
it right now, but just let me say I was, everybody was not excited
when I came home telling them that I'd given my life to Jesus
Christ. They would have rather had me come home and say, "You
know, I've been using LSD five times a week." (Laughter.) "Smuggling
dope in from Amsterdam and almost got arrested." "OK, Lon, no
problem." (But) "I believe in Jesus Christ." "YOU WHAT?!?!"
That's kind of how the reaction went.
But, you know, over the years
since then, I've had the privilege of leading my dad to Christ.
My mother came to Jesus Christ before she passed away, and my
only brother, my only sibling, is now an active Christian, living
for Jesus Christ today. So my entire nuclear family came to
a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. Although it took
twenty-two years of praying and sharing to see that happen.
It was twenty-two years before my mom, the last of the group,
came to know Jesus Christ.
I want to just tell you two
quick vignettes and then I'm done. The first is about my housekeeper.
Back then, there was no politically correct language. We called
her a maid. She was an African-American lady, (a) wonderful
woman. Her name was Cora Lee Goodman. And she, she looked, if
you want a visual of Cora Lee Goodman, think of "Mammie" on
"Gone With the Wind."And that's what she looked like. And she
was just one of the most precious women in my whole life. She
came to work for my family when I was two months old, and worked
for my family all the time I went away to college.
Now, Cora Lee Goodman was not
an educated woman. She could not write her own name. She could
not read. She could not drive a car. She was not an educated
woman. But this woman, when I was a brand-new Christian, and
I began hearing Christian songs, you know, like Blessed
Assurance, Jesus is Mine, and some of these very
familiar songs, I remember thinking, "Wow, you know, I've heard
that song somewhere before! Where have I heard that song?" I
mean, I knew they didn't sing it in the synagogue. (Laughter.)
So, I thought, "Where have I heard that song?" And I could remember,
when I was just a little thing, as Cora would be ironing, or
she would be fixing meals, and as I would be toodling around
her, then I could hear her humming these melodies. So I said,
"You know, I'll bet she's a Christian!"
So I hitchhiked up to Portsmouth,
Virginia to find her. And I found her house. Remember, I've
got hair, a big old afro out to my shoulders. She hadn't seen
me in three or four years, and I knocked on her door. And she
pulled back the little curtain and closed the curtain right
back up! And I knocked on the door again; she pulled the curtain
back. I said, "Cora, let me in! It's Lonny!" That's what they
called me, back then. And she opened the door, still had the
little chain on it, you know how they do, and looking out, and
she said, "What are you doing here?" I said, "Cora, I came up
here to tell you that I've given my life to Jesus Christ." And
she said, "Good God, Almighty! Honey!" She said, "Come on in
here !!!" (Laughter.)
So I went on in and we sat
down, and I told her the whole story about how I'd come to Christ.
And it was just a wonderful time. She's with the Lord, now,
and has been for many years. But she said this to me. She said,
"Lon, I want you to know something." She said, "I have been
praying for you, and for your family, since I came to work for
you when you were two months old." (Now, I'm 21, now, as we're
sitting having this conversation.) She said, "I have been praying
for you and your family for now, 21 years." She said, "But,
Honey, I NEVER thought I'd see the day YOU become a Christian!"
(Laughter.) I said, "Well, here I am!"
We had such a wonderful time
together. You know, Cora went on to be with the Lord in 1975.
But my mother, my father, and my brother all became Christians,
and I'm convinced the reason my entire family came to Jesus
Christ, is because of this woman, this godly woman, who took
us under her prayer wing and prayed for us faithfully, until
she died, which would then have been 25 years. And all of my
nuclear family, as a result, came to Jesus Christ. As far as
I know, this is the only Christian who was praying for me all
those years. And friends, I don't believe that anybody becomes
a Christian, but that somebody's not praying for you. And I
attribute my being a Christian today, and my family being a
Christian today, to the prayer-life of this dear African-American
woman. Couldn't read. Couldn't write. Couldn't drive a car.
But she could pray. And God bless her for that.
Well, one more story. Can I
tell you, in closing, about how my dad came to Christ? I had
the privilege of leading my dad to Christ, just before he died.
He was in the hospital down in Charlottesville, Virginia. My
dad had a very serious heart condition. He had already had three
heart attacks, the fourth one had killed him. And I'm already
older today than my father was when he had his first heart attack.
My mother had called me and
said, "Your dad's in the hospital. He has hepatitis. He's very
ill. You need to come see him." She had made it sound very serious,
so I rushed down to see my dad, praying all the way. I'd been
a Christian now, about seven years. And I walked in the hospital
room and my dad was sitting up, eating a banana, in the bed.
And my first response was anger. You know, my mom did it to
me again. But I had a Jewish mom, and you know how that goes.
And so, anyway, then, we started
talking and my dad said, "How's the weather?" "Fine." "How's
your wife?" "Fine." "How's this?" "Fine." And I knew something
was on his mind. I just knew. So we exchanged a few pleasantries,
and then he said, "You know, Lon, " he said, "I've been doing
a lot of thinking lately." And I said, "Well, Dad," I said,
um, you know, "Thinkin's good. It's good to think." He said,
"Yeah, I've been thinking a lot about all this stuff you've
been telling me about Jesus Christ." And I'm like, Oh, my goodness.
And I'm holding my breath. "You know, and I'm beginning to wonder
if maybe everything you're telling me, isn't right?" And I'm
like, Oh, God, I don't believe this. You know how you pray for
something, and pray for something, and pray for something? I
was praying for my dad, every day, sometimes twice a day, because
I knew how sick he was, and I could get a call any minute that
he had died, unexpectedly, from heart trouble. And suddenly,
here he is, saying that. I felt like calling the nurse and saying,
"Nurse! Clear the next bed here in the room! I need it!" (Laughter.)
But I said, Oh, Lord, please
don't let me say something wrong now, and I said, "Dad, there
is no doubt in my mind that I'm right." I said, "But I'm, I'm,
why, why, you've never been interested, you've never wanted
to talk about this. You've always ignored all my conversations.
Why, all of a sudden, are you saying you think I'm right?" He
said, "Well, Lon, I gotta tell you." He said, "I know I'm a
sick man." He said, "Now I decided that I could find in Orthodox
Judaism everything you found, that you said you found in Jesus.
So," he said, "I stared going back to synagogue. I started going
back religiously. He said, I went to the high holy day services.
I went to Rosh Hashana. I fasted all of Yom Kippur, looking
to find some assurance about what was going to happen to me
after I die." See, for him, the issue was death. He
was terrified of dying. And he said, "I finally walked out of
the synagogue after Yom Kippur services, the Day of Atonement."
He said, "I stood on the front steps of the synagogue," he said,
"And I said to myself, 'No, I don't have any more assurance
of what's going to happen to me after I die now, than I did
before I went through all that ritual. The ritual is nice, but
I don't have any assurance whatsoever. Maybe Lon's right.'"
And I said, "Dad, I am so sure I'm right, it's not even funny."
And the next morning, I had
the privilege of getting down on my knees, next to my father's
bed. He got out of his hospital bed, and got down on his knees,
and the two of us prayed, and he asked Jesus Christ into his
life. He died one week later, to the day. Never left the hospital.
Had a heart attack in the hospital, and died in the hospital.
And the last time I saw him, I went down and saw him one more
time before he passed, and he was hooked up to a trach, and
everything in intensive care. He couldn't talk, but he frantically
wanted me to give him this little, um, piece of paper, you know,
with plastic over, where you can spell words out, when you're
in intensive care. It has the alphabet on it. And I gave it
to him, and he spelled this out. Because, you see, his number
one issue was, he wanted the assurance Jesus gave, but he didn't
want to stop being Jewish. And we had to talk about that, and
I had to say, "Dad, you don't become a Gentile when you believe
in Jesus! You're always Jewish! You complete everything that
being Jewish is all about." So, he got this sheet, and here
he was - this was the last time Dad and I ever saw each other
on the earth - he got this sheet, and he spelled out to me:
"L-O-R-D" (Lord) "A-N-D" (and) "J-E-W." (Jew.) And I knew exactly
what he was telling me. He was telling me, "Lon, I've got the
Lord in my life, but I'm still a Jew." What a wonderful confirmation,
that even under the sedatives, and even in intensive care, he
still had enough presence of mind to spell that out to me and
say, "I know exactly where I am, Lon, and I've got Jesus Christ
as part of my life."
Well, folks, that's really
about all I've got time to talk to you about, but let me just
close by saying this. I'm convinced that the only solution to
life's mysteries, and the only way to have the assurance of
eternal life, and the ONLY way to have the deep-seated joy and
peace, and contentment that we're all looking for in life ...
And I'm not saying that we don't have problems. You know, Christians
have problems. But we have a joy and a peace that supersedes
the problems. And the only way to live a life that's full of
meaning and purpose, I am convinced, is to have a personal relationship
with the God of Israel. And the only way to get a personal relationship
with the God of Israel, is through Jesus Christ, the Messiah
of Israel. Jesus, Himself, said - John, Chapter 14, verse 6
- "I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life. Nobody comes to God
unless they come by way of me." Jesus said that. And if He's
right, and I believe that He is, then, the only way to get that
personal connectedness with God, is through a personal relationship
with Jesus Christ. The only way to get answers to the universe,
and that deep-seated peace, and the assurance of eternal life
is through a personal relationship with Jesus Christ.
Folks, I TRIED everything else.
I tried them with equal commitment, equal passion, and equal
openness to the idea that they were going to work! And, you
can go try them all, if you want to. I tried them all. And I'm
here to tell you that the reason those things didn't work is
because none of them were the true way to God. I FOUND the true
way to God, and I found it in a personal relationship with Jesus
Christ. And I believe, from my experience, and from the truth
of the Bible, that this IS RIGHT. Any person who will give Jesus
Christ a sincere chance to prove Himself to them, Jesus will
DO IT.
I mean, as we mentioned earlier,
my salvation prayer wasn't the greatest. My whole approach to
God, making this deal for a month, you know. You know, God doesn't
take kindly to making deals with Him, but you know, my heart
was right. And if your heart's right, God will deal
with you, because Man looks on the outward appearance, but,
Thank God, God looks on the heart. If you're here today, and
in your heart, you haven't been able to find the things that
I've talked about that I was looking for, and you've looked
in many of the places I've looked, my invitation to you is to
give Jesus Christ a sincere chance to prove Himself
to you. Just give Him a chance. And if you're sincere,
He will take you up on the opportunity and He will prove Himself
to you, just like He did to me.
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